Inability to work
im feeling pretty owned by the amount of work piled in front of me.. but i cant seem to do any of it...
This is for YOU, you know who you are
i just read your diary.. and i know u never listen to anything i say anymore even tho it's for your own good.. heck i was right wasn't i? i told u it was best not to go.. but no.. u did it anyway.. i knew u wouldn't listen to me
as such.. i'll just rant here (dont worry.. except for you.. no one else who reads this knows who you are.. or even knows you that is)
Halloween.. trick or treating.. just tradition..? mm.. yes indeed.. that's what it seems.. but u dont find that the very phrase "trick or treat" has a problem within itself? "it's just a phrase now.. it's not SUPPOSED to be threatening" suuuureee... that's what the guy down there wants u to think
the fact is that this was a ritual to keep ghouls and evil things away by appeasing them. "it's okay as long as u dont dress up as something devilish" why would an angel have to go around to houses asking for candy or else it's gonna do something to those ppl? umm.. appearances are very superficial.. it's actions that speak louder.. if something that looked like an angel came up to u and said "trick or treat" would u think it's harmless..? or just an angel in disguise...
furthermore.. ur thankful to God for letting her stay.. but do u think u're doing what's pleasing to Him? not just that it was halloween.. so maybe i'm of little faith and think it's just better not to do it or something? okay i can give u the benefit of the doubt for that.. i dont know if it's wrong for sure.. only God knows right? but if u had a chance to bring her to church to learn more about God.. but u chose selfishly instead to go out and have "fun" during a night where most would say it would not be good to go out and join in the "festivities".
well think about it.. what could u be doing that would make God smile. you're saying thank you.. are u acting thankful?
i wont even debate on whether she understands what "love" really is and whether or not she really likes u even. and it's not like you dont know the family situation.. it's pretty impossible to make her stay.. she's a kid.. she doesn't know any better.. if she stayed for you.. and left her family.. well u think that's for the best? from a non-selfish point of view please.
after all.. she can always come back for university, and the others would then be back in HK.
"Why does God allow her to leave, when He let us start in the first place?" hey u asked for this buddy.. dont be complaining now.. u have no right
selfish..? yes i've said that word a lot haven't i.. and i think it's quite true.. or maybe i should just say naive instead
