so it's that time of year where u need to work off the weight from Christmas break.. and so the sacrifices and working out ensue~
i promised myself no chocolate for a week (originally a month but i dont think i could last that long)
and i had to stop myself several times... chocolate is everywhere and this addiction has to stop... hot chocolate.. lindt chocolate.. mocha frappacino.. those nestle puffs.. reese peanut butter puffs.. chocolate brownies... chocolate chip cookies..
yes.. chocolate everywhere... (i miss the hot chocolate and brownies..)
so the last few days have been relle tough! i think it'll be a near miracle if i can last a month w/o chocolate!!!
and as for the exercise.. i must've not done a lot during Christmas break in terms of movement.. coz only after one hour of badminton... actually.. just learning badminton.. i was sore all over the next day.. it hurt when i turned in bed.. it hurt when i sat down.. walked.. heck even my arm hurt when i was pressing buttons on the remote.. i went to tea with mom today and the pace was slow.. i think i kind of have a feel for how my grandma felt when she could only walk that fast.. and getting into a car is horrible.. u feel like ur throwing urself in and landing on the seat..
so i think i need to work out more.. im in quite a lot of pain.. so i cant imagine how
raimund must feel after consecutive bouts to the gym..
i know i cant wait for the pain to go away.. so props to the grandma's and grandpa's who have to deal with this everyday.. and still have patience to deal with us
PRAISE THE LORD..
that's all i gotta say.. that and a HUGE thank You to Him as well..
why? because when His grace comes down upon u realize that getting through each day peacefully is a blessing in itself.
this morning (i think largely coz i was being obnoxious and got up late for church..) my mom forgot to turn off the stove while she was making some boiled eggs.. and didn't realize till at 1.. when she got home.. the house was filled with smoke but there was no fire.. the pot on the stove had turned thick black and the eggs inside dark ashes.. no burnt counter tops or anything even.. so praise the Lord!!! for His grace and blessings~
which got me to thinking.. that whenever He wants.. He can take anything away from u.. i just couldn't imagine what would happen if our house had relle burnt down.. i dont even think it's the remorse of waking up late that would kill me.. but just the fear eating up inside about what the future holds for our family.. my mom had mentioned insurance but it still wouldn't be the same.. there would still be tons of financial problems and complications with living quarters and well.. if u can imagine it all.. i relle couldn't.. but definitely could see the obstacles ahead being tall and plentiful..
it was a real wake up for me and my mom.. not just how easily our lives can change.. but how much God loves us as well.. disrespecting by being late for church but He still saves us.. there's not another love like His.. so thank You Lord!!~
so it seems appropriate that
k.hung asks this question of being "called" which i've contemplated a few times too.. with serving in church.. before it was about putting other priorities aside and realizing that u could make time to serve God but now.. it's about whether or not ur supposed to be in this position to serve God.. but i guess that also comes due to increased responsibilities in those serving positions.. as for God's will for u.. that's what the Holy Spirit is for.. it's that little voice that acts as ur conscience rite? with prayer and meditation.. putting down and realizing the desire to follow ur own interests.. it is possible to hear God's voice.. to see Him working around u and then being able to join in and help. Have i experienced this u ask? well i relle believe that i have.. especially on one particular occasion that i wont mention here but i guess if u relle wanted to know u could ask me about it~
to a certain degree.. i also believe that being "called" is also dependent on how well u decide to prepare urself.. spiritually that is.. to build up ur relationship with God.. certainly developing those practical skills to serve is also important but.. if ur relationship with God is strong.. He can call u and use u the way He wants.. work HIs miracles through u because ur relationship with Him is tight and u would allow Him to do His thing whereas those with a weaker relationship would probably tend to rely on their own power..
on the money issues well.. it relle depends on where ur heart is on the matter.. money is important even in the church.. where are the resources gonna come for sending out missionaries.. building new churches.. helping the fellow brother in need? the donations from the members of the church. Even when elisha (friday bible study) asked for a double portion of elijah's spirit.. he got it because altho it seems a greedy request.. he requested purely out of the interests in serving the Lord (in my opinion.. he could've gone back to his rich life when elijah was gone.. but he didn't.. and with elijah gone.. there would be only one of him.. but again this is just my opinion i could be wrong!)
that's my two cents.. i donno if that's much helpful.. or accurate in fact.. but i hope that helps to give some insight at least!~
*wGnii
(with God nothing is impossible)
